love bound...

Bound by the heart...
constant agony,
ripples of emotion
surge unwillingly

No one cares,
No one seems to notice
Veiled with silence
feared to be visualized

The path ahead
so hard to resist.
Feelings unsure
lead the way

Gloomy clouds
hovered above
trickles of rain
embraced the tears

Alas, the heart bound with love
never came back
swallowed in forever darkness
of black and red...

Fleeting thoughts...

Fleeting thoughts raging through my mind,
Those forbidden words;unspoken
Could this be goodbye?

Tears unshed well up my sorrowful eyes,
The years of uneasiness overwhelm me.
I had pictured us together forever.
Now all that remains is a half winged frame,

All that was felt dyed in black and white.
The timeless love had taken its toll,
And the glass shattered into countless pieces.
What good is a heart without a reason to beat?

Life was hard to bare with you,
And the wonder of letting go...
Is a fleeting thought itself....

Remember...

that your life can be what you want it to be.

to take the days just one at a time

to count your blessings, not your troubles.

that you'll make it through whatever comes along.

that most of the answers you need are within you.

those dreams waiting to be realised.

that decisions are too important to leave to chance.

to always reach for the best within you.

that nothing wastes more energy than worry.

that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.

that the longer you carry a grudge, the heavier it gets.

not to take things too seriously

to laugh

that a little love goes a long way.

that a lot goes forever.

that happiness is more often found in giving than getting.

that life's treasures are people, not things.

to cleanse your heart at the end of each day

Hope of an Angel

But look around you,

what do you see?

It's just a mirage!

For the true picture is hidden,

behind the cold and dark mist

filled with sorrowful tears

Walk ahead and make your way,

through the haziness infront of you.

Soar above the clouds in grace.

Youre a free spirit,

feelings lost in an endless sea;

sinking without faith.

But you realise it now,

things are not what they seem.

Let your fear go

and embrace the light

behold an angel in glory;

a soul in delight.

Walk of Life...

As I walk alone

Through the mystery of life
I felt eyes follow my every step
Heard voices that tried to guide me

Though no one would accompany me,
In the dire times that I needed a hand
To help me through it all
I never felt like giving up

I walked alone in anguish
In silence and in thought
With tears streaking down my face
Observing everyone around me
Learning and cherishing

And somewhere along the winding road
Dreams started to colour my path
Hope filled my empty heart
Faith lifted my spirit up

With all these friends beside me
I held them close to me,
Never letting them out of my sight
And I don't walk alone anymore...

My Thoughts...

Where are my thoughts?
Lost somewhere...
With a jolt I realise
I have misplaced them

Who can help me find them?
Where did I leave them?
Surely I kept them safe,
Hidden from all the eyes

I can't ask for help,
They might take them away
Far away into another galaxy
But there must be a way....

Oh I'm panicking now,
Wish they would come back
Find there way back to me
I miss them so...

Bill Gates- After Death

"Well, Bill," said God, "I'm really confused on this one. I'm not sure whether to send you to Heaven or Hell! After all, you helped society enormously by putting a computer in almost every home in the world and yet you created that ghastly Windows. I'm going to do something I've never done before.

I'm going to let you decide where you want to go!"

Mr. Gates replied, "Well, thanks, Lord. What's the difference between the two?"

God said, "You can take a peek at both places briefly if it will help you decide. Shall we look at Hell first?"

"Sure!" said Bill. "Let's go!"

Bill was amazed! He saw a clean, white sandy beach with clear waters. There were thousands of beautiful women running around, playing in the water, laughing and frolicking about.

The sun was shining and the temperature was just perfect! Bill said, "This is great! If this is Hell, I can't wait to see Heaven!" To which God replied, "Let's go!" and off they went.

Bill saw puffy white clouds in a beautiful blue sky with angels drifting about playing harps and singing. It was nice, but surely not as enticing as Hell.

Mr. Gates thought for only a brief moment and rendered his decision. "God, I do believe I would like to go to Hell."

"As you desire," said God.

Two weeks later, God decided to check up on the late billionaire to see how things were going. He found Bill shackled to a wall, screaming among the hot flames in a dark cave. He was being burned and tortured by demons.

"How ya doin', Bill?" asked God. Bill responded with anguish and despair. "This is awful! This is not what I expected at all! What happened to the beach and the beautiful women playing in the water?"

"Oh, THAT!" said God. "That was the screen saver"

Just a joke that I thought was funny...hope you all like it..cheers

Missing You...

To miss you is to love you
I could barely make it through the day
My heart seeks your affection
Each moment passes by so slow

Stranded in a moment
Together in a heart beat
Although we are apart
Nothing matters
Do you miss me too?
Silence accompanies me

Still it feels like yesterday
The nights so lonely
Including the days
Lost in your thoughts
Losing my sanity

Congratulations Jordin!!!

This blog is a tribute to the youngest ever American Idol Jordin Sparks....going for it girl!!!
I saw your audition and I had a feeling that you would be going for the finals...you got all it takes
and you've proven that nothing is impossible...
Even last nights 3rd performance was amazing...I was in tears myself...
Once again, Congratulations...keep sparkling:)

How do I love thee...

"How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.

I love thee to the depth and breadth and height

My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight

For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.

I love thee to the level of everyday's

Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.

I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;

I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.

I love thee with a passion put to use

In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.

I love thee with a love I seemed to lose

With my lost saints,...I love thee with the breath,

Smiles, tears, of all my life!...and, if God choose,

I shall but love thee better after death."

by Elizabeth Barreth Browning (1806-1861)

This is a poem I really admire...

dedicated to the one I love...

A colourful wish...

In the blink of an eye

time passes by

In our lifetime,

we come across paths

some treacherous

and some easy.

While wandering about

I met you

And I thought

Would you be there till the end?

We became friends

and we are still

We had our fights

and we shared our laughs

Cried together and

seen it through

And there's nothing better

that I could do today

Than to wish you

Happy Birth Day

This is your day

Enjoy it the most you can

And this is my wish for you

as colourful as you are..

May the sun smile on you during the day

May the moon guide you through the darkest nights

and the stars shine throughout your life

With loads of love and huggies

plus a tint of laugh...

to my deer Kampi

Alone...

Your fragile, folded wings
are just tired from the pure blue sky.
You don't have to force your smiles for anyone
It's okay to smile...for yourself.

That lonely feeling keeps creeping upon me
A single candle burns still inside.
There shoud'nt be an expensive chandelier in a wild place like this.
Can I really bury it all with empty words?
I don't even know anymore...

As long as we can swim freely in our dreams
We won't need that sky anymore.
Even if you can't let go of the past
I'll still be there to meet you tomorrow.

Your fragile, folded wings

are just tired from the pure blue sky.

You don't have to force your smiles for anyone

It's okay to smile...for yourself.

Hearing your sweet voice didn't always hurt.
It's too late to block it from the inside.
I want to take back our time,
but luck and karma are against me.

There are no words, but your eyes can't hide what you want to say.
I don't even know anymore...

Try to bury it deep down
We don't need that sky if we're free to swim.
Even if you won't talk about yesterday,
I'll still be there to meet you tomorrow.

Translation of the 6th opening song of Bleach

Alones - Performed by Aqua Timez

*** The song rocks:) ***

A Wish...

We've been sisters

since I can remember

We fought over lil things

and laughed over nothing

You have always been there for me

And I appreciate it

from the bottom of my heart

You've showered me with love

And showed me the right way

I celebrate your birthday today.
But having someone who is fun loving

and as thoughtful as you in my life

gives me reason to celebrate everyday

I'm wishing you happiness

And hoping all your dreams come true.

Happy B' Day Dhonnee

With loads of Love and Laughs

Grace Kelly

I want to talk to you!
The last time we talked Mr. Smith you reduced me to tears
But I promise it won't happen again!

Do I attract you?
Do I repulse you with my queasy smile?
Am I too dirty?
Am I too flirty?
Do I like what you like?

I could be wholesome
I could be loathsome
I guess I'm a little bit shy
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me without making me try?

I try to be like Grace Kelly
But all her looks were too sad
So I try a little Freddie
Ive gone identity mad!

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you walk out the door!

Getting angry does'nt solve anything

How can I help it
How can I help it
How can I help what you think?
Hello my baby
Hello my baby
Putting my life on the brink
Why don't you like me
Why don't you like me
Why don't you like yourself?
Should I bend over?
Should I look older just to be put on your shelf?

I try to be like Grace Kelly
But all her looks were too sad
So I try a little Freddie
Ive gone identity mad!

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you walk out the door!

Say what you want to satisfy yourself
But you only want what everybody else says you should want

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you walk out the door!

Humphry, we're leaving...
Ca ching...

Performed by: Mika

Gracefully dedicated to S and S

I'll stand by you...

Oh, why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now.

Don't be ashamed to cry, let me see you through
Cause I've seen the dark side too.
When the night falls on you, you don't know what to do,
Nothing you confess could make me love you less

I'll stand by you,
I'll stand by you,
I won't let nobody hurt you,
I'll stand by you.

So, if you're mad get mad, don't hold it all inside,
Come on and talk to me now.
And hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
But I'm alot like you.
When you're standing at the crossroads, don't know which path to choose,
Let me come along, cause even if your wrong

I'll stand by you,
I'll stand by you,
I won't let nobody hurt you,
I'll stand by you.

Take me in into your darkest hour, and I'll never desert you.
I'll stand by you.

And when, when the night falls on you baby, you're feeling all alone,
You won't be on your own,
I'll stand by you.
I'll stand by you, won't let nobody hurt you.
I'll stand by you

Take me in into your darkest hour and I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you. ooooh, I'll stand by you. I'll stand by you.

This song goes out to my sis Joo on her B'day...

Happy B' Day Joooooooo!!!

Hope you have a wonderfilled day...May Allah bless you *:)

Hero

There's a hero

If you look inside your heart

You don't have to be afraid

Of what you are

There's an answer

If you reach into your soul

And the sorrow that you know

Will melt away

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on

And you cast your fears aside

And you know you can survive


So when you feel like hope is gone

Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth

That a hero lies in you


It's a long road

When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold

You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

And then a hero comes along

With the strength to carry on

And you cast your fears aside

And you know you can survive


So when you feel like hope is gone

Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth

That a hero lies in you

Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away

Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
You'll find the way

And then a hero comes along

With the strength to carry on

And you cast your fears aside

And you know you can survive


So when you feel like hope is gone

Look inside you and be strong

And you'll finally see the truth

That a hero lies in you

Performed by Mariah Carey

Dedicated to Suhan...

Wind beneath my wings

It must have been cold there in my shadow,
to never have sunlight on your face.
You were content to let me shine, that's your way,
you always walked a step behind.

So I was the one with all the glory,
while you were the one with all the strength.
A beautiful face without a name...for so long,
a beautiful smile to hide the pain

Did you ever know that you're my hero,
and everything I would like to be?
I can fly higher than an eagle,
'cause you are the wind beneath my wings.

It might have appeared to go unnoticed,
but I've got it all here in my heart.
I want you to know I know the truth, of course I know it,
I would be nothing without you.

Did you ever know that you're my hero,
you're everything I wish I could be?
I can fly higher than an eagle,
'cause you are the wind beneath my wings.

Did I ever tell you you're my hero?

You're everything everything i wish i could be.

Oh and I

I can fly higher than an eagle

'cause you're the wind beneath my wings

oh the wind beneath my wings

Fly, fly, fly away
you let me fly so high.

Oh you, you're the wind beneath my wings

Fly, fly
so high against the sky, so high I almost touched the sky.

Thank you, thank you, thank God for you,
the wind beneath my wings.

Performed by Bette Midler

OST: Beaches

Dedicated to Suhan

For my Suhan

The most excellent present for an extra special sis on her very special day...

I don't remember the exact date or time when we first met.
Just fragments of images are in my mind
Through pictures taken during those good ol' days.

Being the same age and in the same premises
We got to share primary school,
Though we didn't get to be in the same class
Except for one year only.

We started to get to know each other.
After school we would end up at scoop with an ice corn
No wonder our baby fats didn't burn.

As we grew up so did our friendship grow
By this time I knew for sure you were my best friend.
The only person who would be trustworthy for life,
The one person to whom I could lay out my heart's contents without thinking twice.
You were there for me through think and thin, through rain or shine.

Our lives had differences
It didn't interfere our friendship
We had hard times
which were overcame through
confiding in each other

Studies weren't a hardship
We did our home work over the phone
With some songs in between
Followed by laughter and giggles

Unfortunately we didn't get to finish our school at the same year
But we still remained the same.
I remember one day when we out roaming the roads the Male'
Just being obnoxious and free, we met a class mate and she asked you,
"You two still friends!!!"...and I thought why would she say that?
But I was happy atleast someone noticed that we were still friends...

When I started work you were studying in Lanka,
Oh those larger than life letters
I still have one which I was unable to send. Miscuzi...
And the bindhalaa Habaru tapes...
We create such a brilliant team don't we...
Me, you, Dhonee,Tess, Amy,Kaushar...and our dreams...

While you were still in Bangalore,
I moved and our Quartet had some gaps in between our meetings.
Do you still remember our first meeting?
With the music volume enough to blow the neighbourhood into oblivion
And the guys...with the guitar on the roof and fake camera's..
The stories we wrote and the songs we sang
Just being with you was what it mattered

Time moved forward so did we,
We both followed our own dreams.
Though we were miles apart
Distance didn't matter
Our way of communication is above all
From posted letters to audio tapes
Emails, voice mails and house calls
Anyway works

The most important bond
That we have always shared
Is our gut feeling for each other
No matter where or when

As we grew up
We met different people
But I have never met
Anyone like you

The memory of our First Fight
I can still remember how I cried
Through tears and laughter
For the reason was silly enough

Now you're in SQ
Wishing I was there
Just think of the songs we sang
Or the endless hours we spend
Talking about nothing and everything
Even with a 3 hour difference
Be it day or night

We have so much in common
And yet we are unique in our own ways,
Probably since we are related
But I'm sure we would have been great friends
Even if we were not related...

You were there when I needed you most
When I needed a shoulder to cry on
May it be from laughter of grief
You helped me walk through life
While stumbling and falling
Showed me what friendship meant
Even in the darkest of hours

Even if I find myself
Living a lie
You have shown me
The right path
The fact that you never gave up on me
I have it embeded in my heart

You are my idol
And I look up to you
Am not saying you're perfect
Who is?
Even with flaws
You're still my Suhan

With a smile on your face
Kindness in youre heart
Forever giving
And not asking in return

Don't ever feel lonely
Always know you're loved
and cared for
I am always there for you
And always will be
God knows when I would leave this world
But I promise you
I'll be with you in Heaven

So many memories
And so much to write
I'm sure this page won't do justice
For you and I have made it through
Since I can remember

I am so proud to have you as a sis
And I'm glad you're my best friend
I'll forever be thankful
For you to have been by my side
Through my entire life

Once more Happy B'day Suhan
May Allah bless you always

Friends...

This is a small token on appreciation for all the friends I had,

I have and I have yet to meet...

I'm happy for the fact that you were a part of my life,

making it sweet.

And I'm glad you are in my life

for it can never be better.

Picture...

Living my life in a slow hell
Different girl every night at the hotel
I ain't seen the sun shine in three damn days
Been fueling up on cocaine and whiskey
Wish I had a good girl to miss me
Lord I wonder if I'll ever change my ways

I put your picture away
Sat down and cried today
I can't look at you while
I'm lying next to her

I called you last night at the hotel
Everyone knows but that wont tell
But their half-hearted smiles tell me something just ain't right
I've been waiting on you for a long time
Fueling up on heartaches and cheap wine
I ain't heard from you in three damn nights

I put your picture away
I wonder where you've been
I can't look at you while
I'm lying next to him

I saw you yesterday with an old friend
It was the same o'l same how you been
Since you been gone my worlds been dark and gray
You reminded me of brighter days
I hoped you were coming home to stay
I was head of the church
I was off to drink you away

I thought about you for a long time
Can't seem to get you off my mind
I can't understand why we're living life this was

I found your picture today
I swear I'll change my ways
I just called to say I want you to come back home

I just called to say I love you

Come back home

Performed by Skid Row feat. Sheryl Crow

This song is dedicated to ...

A day of my life...

T'was a serene day, with gentle clouds rolling by lazily,
The wind was barely felt on my face yet it was soothing,
The sound of the sea water brushing past was full of tranquility
Lost in my own world
While the ferry sailed towards its destination.
Floating between my dream world and the real world
I heard a whisper...

It didnt occur real to me so I ignored it
And as I settled myself comfortably
I felt someone smile at me
And I heard the words, "good morning"
I slowly shifted my glance
Everyone in the ferry seemed to be either
Half sleeping and half trying to wake up...

There was nothing unusual,
No one I knew even...
As I moved my eyes towards the window
I finally saw him
Looking at me and smiling down on me
His brilliance over everything
Blushed for not realising it was him all along
I bid him good morning in return

And we had a sweet time
Catching up on lost times
Times I forgot he was there
Even when he was infront of me
Times I missed him for not bieng around
Times when we had so much fun
Enjoying a one on one
Just the two of us...

The Book of Love...

The book of love is long and boring

No one can lift the damn thing

It's full of charts and facts and figures and instructions for dancing

But I

I love it when you read to me

And you

You can read me anything

The book of love has music in it

In fact that's where music comes from

Some of it is just transcendental

Some of it is just really dumb

But I

I love it when you sing to me

And you

You can sing me anything

The book of love is long and boring

And written very long ago

It's full of flowers and heart-shaped boxes

And things we're all too young to know

But I

I love it when you give me things

And you

You ought to give me wedding rings

.............

* The Book of Love - Peter Gabriel /

OST Shall we dance

Breathe...

Time flies by

Moments disappear

before the eyes

could adjust to the blinding light

How far long till this eon pass...
As my memory fades
Holding on to bits and pieces

With the blink of an eye
A second passes by,
The days follow
and so on life goes

How I yearn
For the time to stand still
Till I get my act together
Till I breathe once more
Till I die once again...

Silent Love...

There are so many words

Yet there are no words

For when I look into your eyes

No words need to be spoken

And the warmth of your smile

Is a statement in itself

And how could I ever try to explain

The trembling in my body

When I touch your face

There are no words to explain an emotion

So I open to you my mind

That you might walk

Among my Dreams and Memories

Then… and only then

You might understand my silence....

Shattered Heart...

Whether it was Chance
Or that thing called Fate

That brought you to me
I really can’t say
And I don’t believe
It really matters

For I have been lucky enough
To have the opportunity to hold you
Not just in my arms
But also in my Heart

And should the Winds of Time
Blow hard enough
To take you from my arms
You can rest assured
They will never

Take you from my Heart

Pebbles of Time

As the moon floated across the sky
And twinkled in the ripples in the lake

I sat silently beside you

And tossed pebbles into the water

From time to time you would squeeze my hand

And rest your head on my shoulder

There was no radio

No television

No pennies for your thoughts

Funny how quickly the hours passed

And how much closer I felt to you

Maybe more often

We should sit down together
And have a good, long 'Silence'